Never More

2011-08-05T07:13:00.000-07:00

2011-08-05T07:07:00.000-07:00

2011-07-18T00:25:00.000-07:00

*RANTS ALERT *

why does people like you exist?

There are too many rage in me now. My blog is so anonymous that no want see. So I can run as wildly as I like.

I once said cosplay is my life. But now it's meaning is rather blur. To be precise, it sucks totally. Me being in it had caused quite a big misery to me. Don't be mistaken tho, I still love the hobby a lot. But when the time comes when everyone is against you, the feeling, you can just go straight to hell.

I mean, lets face it. Being right is not gauged by the amount of supporters you have. Principles are at stake, my dear. You don't go around telling people what I have not said. Yes, English is very important, so is the power of speech. I do believe I have a certain standard of English, and when I scold people with it , does it mean that I can't produce my eloquent English? Are you afraid that you are unable to withstand my criticism? Loser.

Furthermore, I do not insult any other people other than you. So would you shut up about how I go around screaming about how I insult other people. Learn to differentiate between singular and plural. If both of your language fail, I think you just got a ticket straight to ITE.

And for your information, my insults to your includes of facts. Do you not agree your eyes are small?

If you called me fat, I won't deny, cause I am fat. But then again, I can slim down, can you alter your eye shape?

Here comes another loser.
You hang out together with me, I agree that that was one of the great times I ever had in my life. But you don't have to stab me in the back do you? You posted status, and then you say it wasn't meant at me. I mean, I didn't even think that it was me. So imagine if you told me that the person you referring was not me , what is the first thing that will automatically come to your mind? Huh?

Futhermore, stop being as a pussy. You said backstabbing me behind my back was a misunderstanding? Don't act like I do not know. I know everything you and that little jerk is up to. Is like fucking obvious? You sure you preferred to disclose everything on the social network? I'm trying to save your skin! It was a misunderstanding that you said I was a slut. It was a misunderstanding that you said I suck in cosplay. It was a misunderstanding that you send SMSes to people that I don't even fucking know complaining about me. It was a misunderstanding that you told other people that I spread fake rumours. It was a misunderstanding that you don't bother to reply my SMS to clear our "misunderstanding" and just push the blame to other people.

In addition, I would like to add, that you are a total Ananias. Pathological liar. Why do you have to keep lying and lying and lying?

Moving on,
This jerk. Fucking Jerk. I swear upon my honour and pride , that one day, I will make your life a burning hell. Who do you think you are ? Sec 2 scum. You have no opinions. More like, you are a dog. Just go wagging your tail around that pathological liar. Whatever she say, you will never disagree. I mean, you don't act close with me, then use me, and think that i will be used by you again. Of course, I don't need you in my life. But why do you always have to start a fight with me. If you think that my target of speech was directed to you, then so be it. I don't give a jizz to it. It's obvious that me, as a human, a highly intelligent creature, do not have to stoop to your level.

Speaking of it, even if you wanted to shoot people, make sure you have a certain aptitude of English, before you start acting like some almighty cosplayer. I do not deny that some of your cosplays are nice, but you need to be more humble. I don't think that these kind of attitude you have now will bring you far in life.

It's obvious that you are using people around you other than that Ananias. Since you are so infatuated with her, might as well gut up and confess. No wait, I forget, she rejected you. And wait, you are the person who realised that she was a pathological liar. Then just go wag your little tail.

I will get the last laugh. My cosplans is nice, and I WILL make it nice. With my pride on the line. You bunch just wait. I will enjoy myself , sipping tea, looking at you all eat your own words.

Everyone is busying saving their own skin. I am so hateful and hated. But no, I must remind myself not to doubt others, but ultimately, I will triumph. Just wait, we'll see. Future gonna sweep floors and clean toilets opponents.

2011-06-01T06:19:00.000-07:00

I know I have no updated for every every long. But life is so busy that you will forget the existence of so many things.

My life, sadly for now, has no meaning.

Well, everything had gone down the hill every single time around this period of the year. I think I clashes with May, June, July. The three months which makes my life a total misery.

I had started cosplay last year fall, everything was so awesome at that period of time. Peaceful. New Friends. We liked each other. Note : LIKE. But yeah, it took a little trivial, minor issue to break all the trust held. Whateva, i will move on.

Life is so fucked up i has nothing else to say to it. My form was a TOTAL JERK (yeah come sue me). I hate him. Oh wait, hate is no a strong enough word. I DESPISE him. I have no idea what kind of shit is going through him head. You enjoys breaking up family is it? And please. stop those stupid jokes in class. They are not even funny. You like that bunch of monkeys? Go ahead. I deal with the fact that all teachers are biased. But surely, none of them shamelessly showed it in class. And for god sake, learn to tone it down. You like him, but please be fair. We said the same thing, and i said it AFTER him. And you still have the fucking guts to say I should pick my words carefully? He can use a broom to threaten you in class, call you fat and dog. Yet I, who just randomly came up and joke and you can tell me my attitude is sucky? Please, it just tells me something about your stupidity level.

And nice meet the parent. My love for you when deeper.

Back to main.

Cosplay is my life. I precious part of life which i have (and going) to forsake. Thanks to the above. I like cosplay. It gave me the confidence that studies failed to provide me. Im ain't genius, but why can't I pursue the dreams that I wanted; do the stuff I always aspired to do? Severing all ties with friends. Nice idea you gave to my mum. And mother, you actually accepted it . WOW.

Cosplay made me new friends. I have no idea how long we will last. But this will always be a great part of my life.

Here are some pictures at Japanese Arts Fiesta (JAF)

My shishou is hawt, isnt she ? *w*

I be ghey (Y)

2010-11-28T00:47:00.000-08:00

Life is like usual, a bitch.

Fuck my life seriously. Piss off with a lot of stuff. I'm soooooo bored! FMLness everyday. My parents are slut. I don't see any point in house keeping. Its a)a waste of time b)going to be real inconvinent since in the future I will be unable to find my stuff.

My keyboard is being a bitch again. So thats all

2010-10-25T02:56:00.000-07:00

Wow, how long have i not updated??!! hehe. This picture is totally random and i loved it. :DD

People, You Again was fantastic!! It was absolutely the best thing that can happen this year. We were laughing throughout the whole show like "OMGGGGGG!!" That was just that amazing.

Mum is random. She called up halfway the movie and said something like :"Buy me a chicken"

... What was that... tsk. zz

The younger brother was that cute! "You look completely computer-generated." -.-"

and the "evil" girl was just damn chio!!! She got Megan Fox's eyes WOW!! But Boya and Yongfang think that the other blond girl was nicer. Whatever -.- HEH!

I would watch it again!!! Anyone interested??? :DD C'mom, let's watch together. I will also buy the disc when it comes out HEHE. That show is really amazing :DD

2010-09-20T03:31:00.000-07:00

I'm back from Malaysia, like finally. The wedding was fun, the food was delicious, my cousin (bride) was chio. My cousins was all so pretty. I'm so fat there. Whatever -.-

I love the village, if not for the fact that there is a fucking huge spider on top of the ceiling when I was bathing. That spider was fucking big! I have to look up every three seconds to confirm if the spider was up there. However, that was not the only spider on the freaking bathroom! There was a time when I look up to see the queen spider was still there or not, a small spider fucking landed on my face. Fuck, i totally freaked out and screamed. I not afraid of dogs or cats but I freaking terrified of insects.

I don't care if you bloody feel I'm dumb. Spider is an insect.

There was also a fucking hordes of flies! One asshole flew into the shark fin soup!
DAMNIT! I only had one bowl! Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. Insects should be annihilated in these world.

Tired. Return home at some goddamnly hour. Majorly tired with a pounding headache.
I'm sleeping. Good night.

2010-09-01T07:05:00.000-07:00

hehehe.... bought a new phone...

So happy!!! Though the phone is touchscreen, a bit difficult to use...

Anywayyy, very glad that i finish my show... Awwwwwww~ vincent... How can you be so goddamn hot!!!??
My heart go pong pong whenever i saw him.... He is this hot... arrowthree :x the girl in the show i liked the best died...a small part of me died together with her... Haiz... When she was just a child she died once for vincent... Twenty years later, she died again for him... What a poor girl.... Vincent should end up with shui xin instead of yue hong...

whywhywhy....

Haiz anywayyy. Everything is crazy ... my mum is crazy and she's driving me crazy....
I really wonder how long i can take this...

The girl who spent all her life having tuition

2010-08-30T04:26:00.000-07:00

Fuck Fuck Fuck. All they cared is me attending tuition. why did you have the mindset that every minute is money? I damn well know more about money than you bloody bitch. I told you that I'm not in my best of mood today. Mainly because I have tuition. In other words, if you need an interpreter due to your feeble-mindedness, it means LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.

Does it need much more explaining. If you came just to annoy me, you shouldn't blame nor complain about my attitude. Who do you think you are. And please, get a life, grow up, stop comparing me with others. You dare say that he was better than me? Fuck hell. Are your eyes for decoration, bastard?

2010-08-28T02:49:00.000-07:00

Mao totally rocks!!!! SID is the best boyband alive on Earth. He's voice always got a tinge of sadness and healing effect!! Shy >///< try listening to Rain, and Sleep. Omg omg omg. I'm totally fandom over SID. I mean, today most japanese boy band is either visual kei. In other words all looks (though you cant tell since their hair covered 3/4 of their faces)and no voice. Or all voice but less looks. SID is the only band alive with all looks as well as all voice. They suit my taste like seriously. At least i can still see their face, not covered with excess hair -.-

Admittedly, Mao looks gay. But gay=cute. New boybands nowdays acts like gangster and you can't make out what they sing. They completely fail when it comes to singing slow songs. Their sense of fashion completely fail, obessed over lots of hair covering eyes. Aki may have alot of hair but I can still see his eyes and face in general. He looks fiecre and that's what I call real cool.

SID owns.SID <3 At least they can sing rock and sweet and sad and loving songs all at once. Not like other boybands which have hair covering 75% of their face. >_>

2010-08-25T02:06:00.000-07:00

Okay. I failed. I failed life. I failed my parents. I failed myself. I failed my bloody papers. I really don't see the point in taking papers which you are destined to fail. It the same logic with throw an egg from the top of a skyscraper and hopes that it do not break.

What the bloody fucking hell?

God up there or down there or whatever, are you punishing me for not believing in you unless I have a problem? Well, excuse me for being atheist! It's okay to believe in God, though most of the time they don't help you.

Hell yeah! I did study. I slept for average less than 4hrs a day just to study that freaking piece of shit. Sure, piss on me, I wasted my hours sleep for practically paper of nothing. I failed. Which means I'm dumb. Sorry if you can't stand this piece of trash. The door is always there to welcome you to leave.

I may not be the smartest person alive in a wheelchair depending on machines to stay alive nor I am a bastard who aces all the bloody exams. I'm only human, and I wanted to remain that way, I don't want to change into a vampire or some weird creatures of the night. I only human. I have my flaws. Which in direct, I do not like to study. Why do everyone have to force me in a way that would just totally drive me mad? I'm closed to tears, but I won't cry.

Crying would make you more helpless.

I don't really think that i have anything to live for. No one can ever love me. I'm irritable, hateful, a slut, a bitch, a whore. I'm far too useless to be living. No one would be crying even if I die. I would be better off dead. The world will be a better place to live in without me, people would rejoice over my death. One less parasite to worry about. I'm so useless. Me dead would make many people happier. In all reality, living is too much to take for dirt like me, I'm weak. So I prefer death, the easier way out.

2010-08-24T03:14:00.000-07:00

Okay, this may not be the full crew but I like the outline of it. This is just so cool!!

Anyway, Common Test is over!! Oh god miracles do happen! >///<

I feel so proud of myself, I passed my bloody maths paper. Chemistry is a bitch. I swear. Six people passed and I'm proud to announce to you that I'm not the minority. Too cryptic? Go read your English Dictionary or go Dictionary.com,though most of the time it's unrealiable.

The prelude of Lotus Lantern. God tells me why i love that bitch so much. I watch for more than 10 times and I'm still not sick of it. Mainly because the main character is hot. Awwwwwwwwww~ Vincent~

Big Bang Theory is so cute!! Epic to the max!! Dr. Sheldon Cooper ftw!!!

Leonard: -walks in with lappy- Who changed my facebook relationship statue to in a relationship?

Sheldon: Me.

Leonard: YOU HACKED MY ACCOUNT?

Sheldon: No. I wouldn't call it hacking, since all your passwords for all accounts are the same. KaEl

-Laughter.-

Leonard: I'm changing it back..

-Notification appears- : *Some girl* is in a relationship with Leonard.

Leonard: -Look at Sheldon-

Sheldon: Please call me Dr. Sheldon Cooper For The Win

Epic niceness. <3 o everything. Except this and that. Okay this statement is pointless.

Ja

Fail, Fail. and FAIL.

2010-08-16T07:06:00.000-07:00

Fail. Fail.And FAIL!

All i can do in life is to fail. Like a complete loser. No one would even bother if I were to die and rot at home. No one knows anything about me. Even I don't understand myself. I. KNOW. NOTHING. I really hope that a miracle would stick out somehow. My life is screwed upside down and up again. Nothing is going to cure it back to it's original state. Look at the bright side? There it no bright side!! Where the bloody hell should I look at.

Unbe-fucking-lievable.

Just tell me how should I fucking score in the bloody paper. I failed literally all my subjects. What's the point in studying for my case. Life is getting mundane. No one really cares about me. The World would be a greater place to live in without me. I'm just trash. I do not have the looks, nor the brains. I'm lazy. I'm hopeless. I'm whatever-you-can-label-me. This sucks. Life sucks. There's nothing I can look forward to anymore. Naruto, Sasuke takes forever to appear. Money? I have none.

Whatever formula. Whatever acceleration. To hell with you.

It's is fucking awesome to make people fail and go crazy? Why are we studying how a car increases it's speed. This is mad. Everything is mad. I'm mad. I will no longer think anymore. This is so dumb. My brain is overloading. Hell or heaven. Whatever it is, bring me out of this stupid rat race and vicious cycle. If only One Piece or Ninja, Mafia with Flames, Zombies, or even boring Shinigamis were part of my life. I will have more to look forward to.

To hell with the world.

2010-08-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

Omg! He is so damn hot. Vincent, i'm now fandom over him. OMG OMG, addicted to ancient period dramas. Hawt. Hawt. -Shy >////<-

2010-08-10T03:52:00.001-07:00

Awwwww~ isn't this sweet.

2010-08-09T00:54:00.000-07:00

Woooooots! I passed my maths. Haha.

LOL national day today. I'm believed that more people would watching Ip Man than the actual parade. Anyway, today I'm in a unbe-fucking-lievable good mood. Maybe because I went to tuition. English tuition, of course. Chinese tuition I have good friends but boring lesson. But English tuition, I have both good friends and interesting lesson.

Haiz. I have no interest in the parade. I only want to watch Ip Man.

2010-08-04T05:01:00.000-07:00

okay. I officially face the fact that my Maths is not going to improve no matter what I do. It's really aggravating, you spent thousand of hours in my room studying and practicing Maths yet I still failed that fucing piece of shit.

Yes, maybe is due to my dumb, senseless brain or my stupidity. I just cant do anything right. I totally ruined everything. I'm just so useless. I don't know how much more shit I can take, but my limit is reaching. Life is this screwed up. You work and work and all you got is a piece of death certificate. Fuck. Singaporeans worked themselves to death. I can't help but laugh. False promises, lies and deception.

Worthless. Like me, a piece of scum, there's no way I'm going to survive. I'm now hoping that the 2012 rumours are true. And I hoped that it will come even faster. Mankind eradication. Carnage, the best end for the stupid humans like myself.

I'm so angry. This life no longer have a meaning. We're not the eligible beings to judge life as a whole. But as an individual, I can got all the rights to judge my fucked-up life. This life is like a nightmare. Endless waking, you never felt like you have ever rest well.

Well, maybe the only way to get sufficient rest is to die. With that, I'll fall into an eternal sleep.

2010-07-24T20:59:00.000-07:00

haha, Sogeking rocks to the max. Enough though Sze Eng said he looked Malay. Awwwww~ just hoo cute for him to have double personality and not go crazy. He was so skilled even though he does not look like it.

And i agree with the picture. Donning a mask makes you a complete different person. :X

Anyway, I feel so dead after so long. Especially after I failed my physics again. Oh yah, if you still don't get the message I. HATE. PHYSIC. At least I can score at least one question right in Maths, but Physics, you gotta be kidding me. Anyway, I decided to flunk my Physic or whatever in Hell was waiting me. Hell was a better place to go. I'm an don't believe in God, I don't care if you say I'm going to Hell or what. I will only find out after I die. Hmph.

Screw Physics. Masks rocks.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASUKE, MY SWEETHEART!!!

2010-07-23T07:27:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASUKE, MY DARLING. I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND AFTER.

Happpy birthday. I will always love you. Yes, i've loads of boyfriends but ultimately you are the only guy as my Husband.

I LOVE YOU. ALWAYS

Happy birthday to you. May you will always be happy. When you are down, I'll always stay by your side and cry for you.

I'm serious. I really really really love you. With all my heart.

World Domination

2010-07-19T04:31:00.000-07:00

Today was a sucky day.

I WANT TO HAVE WORLD DOMINATION!!!

Then after i had my fun or whatever, I'll hand the world to huang qing so that she can eradicate humankind. Nice plan, it sounds, isn't it. Anyway, I would not eradicate all mankind, just keep so as my minions. And I want the cute ones, like what Gru have.

Anyway, the start of the day was plain boring. Quek lesson, what didja expect? But what was fun was the lunch break (was it?) and chem.

Mr Tan: I had enough! -note to self, he was smiling-
Class: Muahahahahaha
Mr Tan: I'm angry -still amchou-
Class: MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!~~

Anyway, that was hilarious. And by the way, I got ying lian a new nick. I'm not sure if it was an upgrade or downgrade. At first we call him peabrain, but now, it was bakainu or ahouken. (Stupid dog.)

Anyway, i called Mr Tan this before he left. Sensei, omae was buta mitai desu. I leave the deciephering to you. I don't want him to track down my blog and know what I said to him. -.-

And joseph, he was sick!! omg, I did not notice it until we meet at the bus stop. He was still so high when we playing tap tap, twister. Haha. TT^TT

Anyway, get well soon. :DD

Despicable Me!

2010-07-16T06:40:00.001-07:00

Despicable Me was so goddamnit nice!! The minions were just plain adorable!!!
Gru was also one of a kind. Supervillian cum Superdaddy.

Agnes: Gru... I want a unicorn.
Gru: I don't have time for this.
Agnes: -Sad eyes-
Gru: -Begrudgingly- You, you and you(minions) got to the supermarket and buy the unicorn

-Next scene-

The three minions, one dressed as father, one as mother, and one as son. The son was wearing diapers! Oh my god, it was plain adorable. okay?

There is another scene where the girls wanted Gru to give them the goodnight kiss. He said no, of course, but he later came back and kissed them. When he got out of the room, the thousand and thousands of minions gathered outside the room.

One of the minions: MUUUUUUUUAAACK~~ -kissing pose-
Gru: No, I'm not doing this.
Minions: -sad face- AWWW~
Gru: -Sigh- Fine.

Kiss one, kiss two, kiss...
then another one he kissed came back, cut the queue and he knew that he had kissed the one! OH MY GOD, HOW CAN HE NOTICED IT. THEY LOOKED EXACTLY THE SAME ! Minion behind the line, punch him out of the line. The whole cinema was like laughing out loud.

The plot was typical, the laughing scene was yet, incredible. Had a very good laugh! ^^ People watch Despicable Me! Haha!

Should I or should I not?

2010-07-14T03:11:00.000-07:00

That monkey is always known for getting onto peoples' nerves. He's is really courting for death. Is he trying to make everyone hate him? Please, for god sake, what are you? a god?? Why are you controlling our life like as though you own them? I fucking hate you. I do not give a damn to what you teach us. We are already Sec 3 please, we are not primart school children or preschooler. Can you give us some space and not always bring the subject to our parents?

And now, you wanted us to sign some freakin' contract and say that you'll give us a chance to choose? This is just freaking wrong! We did not ask for homework. And yet you're purely spamming us with homework.

I don't know about others. To me, Maths is the most important to me. And you fucking stole lessons from Mr Chia! Oh my god, who do you think you are? The biggest man in the world? Dareka omoi te ru, omae wa? We love Mr Chia. I suck at maths, but that does't means I can't like the teacher.

I. Like. Mr. Chia.

I. Don't. Like. You.

You're just like monkey. Oh! maybe you are just one, that's why you are so proud and full of yourself. You are just a joke. And please change your mindset. THIS IS FUHUA. Not Hwa Chong so so freak school. And the way you do things is just like you only wanted the elite in your class. And you treated the rest like outcast.

You put the word 'fucker' in 'motherfucker'.

Human are all the same. However, some induced the hatred of people whereas others, people would just love them like no other. Sadly to tell you, Jerald Quake Jian Zhi, you belong to the first catergory. Regardless of openly or in the back, I'm speaking bad, no, the truth about you.

Stress.

2010-07-12T03:56:00.000-07:00

I don't know about the new skin. Nobody read this blog anyway.

i just wanted something to vent my anger etc.

i seriously hate my English teacher. That monkey. His is getting on my nerves every single passing minute. I hate the way he always tried to make us stay back, desperate for lessons. Furthermore he always treat us like a bunch of gaki -- A little bunch of preschooler.

Please, for god sake, I don't know what he wants. We are freaking Secondary Three already. Why are we doing verb and subject? I admit my grammar was atrocious but still! It was so freaking boring!

Plus, I'm really pissed of at the fact that he gave demerit points as though it was so easy to earn merit points. And I feels that the school should change its system. Allocated about 50-70 merit points PER teacher. These teachers now days are wasting merit points like it was free. We had to participate in several VIGOROUS, WITH LONG LASTING HOURS to earn a mere 5 merit points. And That Monkey just cutting it off before we can replace it. We just talk, what's your problem? Our mouth aren't just for decoration dude!

okay enough of rants. I love Chu Jun. I love Wen Li. Even though they aren't by my side as long as my classmates, but I'm sure that they would always stand by me in hard times.

I WANT TO THANK THEM. A LOT. TYVM. I LOVE YOU GUYS.

Anyway, I felt that maybe I should make this blog into a fiction press. I may post random one-shots at time... Though I feel that I would be the only one reading. But anyway, writing fanfictions or fictions are purely because of interest. I wouldn't give a damn about what others think.

This year, I'd learned something important. That is to let go. It's not like me to try and please everyone.

2010-07-05T04:54:00.001-07:00

FML _l_

lyk seriously. I. Hate. My. Mother.
and yes, she is a bitch.
which makes me a son of a bitch or watever i dun give a damn. -.-

She is still a bitch. How can she go around complaining about how heavy her workload is when people are out there doing their work. Suck it up, you are not the only one working your ass off.

SHE FUCKING TOUCHED MY FIGURINES. AND NOT ONLY TOUCHED. SHE SWIPED.

DOES SHE EVEN HAVE RESPECT??

i have been telling her since the start of the year : touch my figurines, everyone will be upset.
Throwing her enyzemes or watever the nasty juice into the trash, the place were it rightfully belong, was a waste of my strength. The bottles of mutant drinks are heavy.

Dont scream at me when you already did what i dont like and received your due pinishment. Fuck you. Are your ears merely for decoration on your head? An ugly one the more. Dont you have eardrums, if not, use a drill to drill a bigger earhole so you can finally take my words in and take them seriouisly. If something is wrong with your brain, feeble-mindedness IQ, eat more pig brain, that would help. A lot.

Keep the dirty hands off my figurines. Idiot

2010-06-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

perphas? maybe? who knows?

i really wanted a cosplay for myself...
i noe people look stupid in cosplay but you see? the urge and jealousy to see people who can wear it burns in me. (and sometimes, these bloody shirts are too goddamn nice.)

i know it all, the cosplays are just a waste of money, but you see?
i've sweared to myself that i'm going to buy at least one in my whole life.
i dunnoe though? whether my relationship with my parents will fall apart again because of one fucking outfit.

i dun care if they dun sponsor me, just give me my fair share of pocket money and i'll do fine with saving and not eating.

back to the topic, issit worth or not...
i dun really knnow...
since the outfit i wanted is the shinigami fuku... (cheapest.)
next in my choice will be the akatsuki cloak though(same price.)

sigh... it wasnt my of a debate though (my mum said that i'll look terrible in it)
that was kinda like the final blow.
i really wanted that costume but at the same time, i dun really wear it out, am i right??

okay, i will definitely wear it to my cousin wedding if i had one, that was final.
and maybe to afa. who knows?

anyway the most important thing right now is to save money and buy that fuku.
no money no talk.

sometimes i just really wished tha i'm born rich.

2010-05-09T07:14:00.000-07:00

i dont get it anymore.

lyk seriously, why do my parents give birth to me??
why do i keep smiling lyk an idiot??
why do i have to keep up with a "hahaha i dont care" facade??
WHY?WHY?WHY?

i dont know anymore...

i keep telling and reminding myself not to get too attached.
dont let anyone find out about the 'real me'
i dont know how to keep up this act anymore...

i have been living like an idiot for the past 14 years of my life.
acting like a puppet, i act around people, smiling even though i'm never truly happy.
i dont remeber any happy moments.

yes perhaps, does sleeping considers?
i feels that sleeping is the best way to forget everything.
when i sleep, it the period which i distinctively dont feel anything, like a dead person.
but sleeping is always sleeping, you are not dead, so you would still have to wake up.

AND CONTINUE TO SUFFER THROUGH THE HELL CALLED LIFE.

everytime i woke up, i cant shake off this feeling to wish that i shouldnt have woken up.
to give up on everything, to not bother about anything.

maybe there is a few regrets here and there. this is not a joke. but laugh for all you want.
what is currently keeping me alive is really really naruto. i really wanted to see the end of it. but if the choice is in front of me. i'd still choose death.

compared to the hellish shit i'd been through, death seems more appealing. i dont believe in any religion or gods. so just lying there and rot off is not a bad idea. i will not have to endure the failing exams and my fucking parents who dont give a damn about my feeling or emotions as long as i got a good grade and not disgrace them.

I REALLY HAD ENOUGH.

to the extent that i'm not even angry anymore. i... just gave up. on this shitty life who would not get any better even if i were to get good grades. my materialistic parents was just going about how much a useless crap i am and how did i keep embarassing them. all they cared about is their faces and nothing else.

my relationship with my parents was bad enough that i would move out once i reach 18. i saw no point in living in them. i dont like them, they dont like me. what go through all the sufferings when all of us are irritated just by the existence of each other?

i'm tired. i really tired.

the facade in school
the facade at adrien's
the facade in front of all of my 'friends'

i'm too confused. i cant even cry even though i desperately wished to.

i keep telling myself that i love company...
but maybe, the 'real' me which i had long forgotten only wish to be alone, be in solitude
and not to be interrupted by anyone... even those connected by blood.

2010-04-22T05:09:00.000-07:00

ya, morons are easy to spot, namely my parents.

just exactly what is their problem? no matter what i do, they are unhappy.

i use comp, they complain not hardworking.
fine, then i do hwk, they complain im not doing it seriously.

WHAT THE FUCK?

i dun care anymore.

they would only scream at me if i get low results.
then would only scold me if a didnt get well enough.

tsk. the whole world is just out to fuck me.

i hate the teachers. eg that form bastard.
exactly what is his problem? non-stop targeting me, everything is me.
dun noe is also me, eat sweet oso me.

pls lah. whole class eating only target me.

and also that jiao bin tan.
open your eyes bigger lah, idc you gave me 50 demerits pts or what, im still saying this.

Hello, dude, alot of ppl is eating in class for the sake of staying awake in the class, can you stop being a dickhead? somemore if want catch then catch all lor. the person directly in front of you is eating, the person beside you is eating, the person on top of you is also eating. are you gonna to give every single soul demerits?

tsk. moron everywhere.

and please, do something about your menopause.
stop having your mood swings everytime, is lyk so lame -.-'''
besides, are you even a man? why keep acting like a damn whiny woman and being so petty? even my 3-yr old cousin have a bigger heart than you.
P.S sorry woman, i'm a girl, i can insult my sex.

end of rants. but not necessary end of anger.

2010-01-03T02:18:00.000-08:00

my lastest fandom:D hehe
kanda=hot -nose bled-

hawthawthawthawthawt

i lurve him AGAIN after reading the manga
he so kelian lor...
i cried reading the last sentence of kanda monolouge
i didnt really expected him to be the second excorist... so xinku their life
alma is cute~

haiz temporaily crazy over kanda...
will revert back to sasuke soon...
cos i think bcos naruto very long nvr update liao sooo... D:

anyw kanda is hawt :D
so is sasuke...

2009-12-01T02:57:00.000-08:00

I. DON'T. GIVE. A. FUCKING. SHIT. ANYMORE.

DUDE ,WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?!

2009-11-28T23:13:00.000-08:00

this is lyk damn hilarious lor....

the first thing i added to my list of things to do in 2013

I'LL WATCH 2012 IN 2013 AND LAUGH AT IT ^^

okay, this is a facebook fan group created by patrick song
i aint taking any credits, ppl with facebook shld all join this fan group...
2i1 lets meet tgt in 2013 to watch 2012 and laugh at it :D !!!

2009-11-24T03:57:00.000-08:00

hohohoho
me and huang qing went to science centre today:DD
very fun i must say
i <3>
everything is just so cute

esp the human body part
everything is so erotic!~~

reminds me of blowjobs :DD
the thoat muscles esp....

and i cant believe i actually stepped into a maths exhibiton
i dont understand a fckin thing esp the dice roll and jackpot ^6^
i lyk the slanted room too:D issit call the anmes room
lyk fuck watever. =.=

hehe

the aging machine is lyk damn fake lor...
i look as old as an 80 yrs old hag when i am sure that i clicked on a child =.= 凸
i didnt know until today that science centre actually have a library...
its quite nice but to pay 3 dollars just for the library is stupid... but we can stil visit the SC after that :D

i lyk kept shouting to the echo tube i love sasuke...
sasuke is mine etc etc.
the sound exhibits is lyk wth...
its quite nice but a lot not working...
i wear the headphones and press the button

wait for 1 min

nth came out

take out earphone

closer look, wire cut off

my feeling= 凸=.= 凸

the drawings at meowga's blog :D

2009-11-23T20:25:00.000-08:00

omg this show suoer nice... go watch ppl!! its a must!!!

their clothes is like so....EPIC!!!!

i <3>
the third one on the left...
she is sooo evil and chio~~
very pratical

unlike the fouth one on the left
too kind to be the main character
T>T

anywae this show rocks ~

2009-11-23T05:10:00.000-08:00

SasuNaru ftw

Today went iluma.
too bad no money, or else i die also will buy the wallet... =.=
play arcade until i pok....
haiz
imma gonna fast... T>T

den she came my house to edit her blog...
i love her blogskins so much sia~~
so cute!
its like the woman kept hitting the man through the years
but when they die they heart each others. :DD

im sad cos class separated....
i maybe gonna appeal but i think the chances are slim.
lyk fuck watever. ;/

anyway i love my blogskin
so nice rite?
its more of an understatment than question~

the rest of the links i'll do on another day. :DD